Thats the fact that despite how we are raised and what we are told growing up, life doesn't always wind up the way you are told it will happen. I was raised being told that we would grow up, parents would grow older. Then eventually we would find someone to love and get married, and spend the rest of our life with them. Well I blew that one out early on when I was alot younger and got divorced after a short marriage. Well now that time has had a chance to disrupt what I was originally taught earlier it disturbs me even more. We were always told our parents would always be there, but now its just not so.
Now that my parents are getting older I can see that my father despite surviving alot of ill health in his later years, may be there physically but he is slowly leaving us mentally. He has to fight harder and harder just to maintain a day to day life. Let alone if you are watching anything that is a mystery or suspense, he is just lost. Not to mention that my older brother is following directly in his footsteps of the way he handles things.
The saddest part of it all is that I fear I will be following in there footsteps, and that really does scare the hell out of me to think I will follow that same path. I have been active and trying to change things, but I'm not sure if I am or if its jsut an illusion of pacifiying myself.
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